This past month has been extremly stressfull. My dad has been doing worse over the past few weeks and the signs where there but he would not accept them. My mom, and I both kept telling him that you need to go to the doctor. He is a stubborn man and kept saying I am fine. he finally called the doctor and I drove him over. He is not the type of guy that likes to have others drive him. So I knew he was not well. Mind you I already knew what the doctor was going to say. Yep off to the hospital we go. First stop off and let mom know. Then home to pick up supplies and say by to the grandkids (my animals) then off to the hospital. Did I mention he is stubborn. The entire time watching it getting harder for my dad to breath. He was in congestive heart failure. Thankfully he is home but hates the fact he has to have the oxygen. The entire time all I could think of was what am I going to to without dad in my life. In the past four years the question has come up more than once. Each time I have the same answer to give. I have no idea what I will do. All that I do know is that I will not be whole,and I am scared. My dad is my rock and he means the world to me. He is the one that understands me and knows what I need sometimes before I do. Most girls are close to there mothers not me, my dad is the one that keeps the peace between the two of us. For one year I can count on one hand the amount of times I talked to my mom. If I came to visit I made sure she was not at home I would not take calls from her. Nothing It was dad that finally made mom and I talk and become what our relationship is today. So my world had a huge earthquake in it and I am still trying to build my walls back up. I am glad to have my dad home and not having to answer the one question that scares me the most. Yet I am watching the man that had so much strengh that he would work all day and know he has to take a rest after a few minutes of work. It is hard to watch but at least I am here to help him out and get to spend more time with him. My dad truly means the world to me.